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"I think what affects me most about her story is her need to search for who her mother was through police records, court documents and the friends and family her mother left behind."
Synopsis
A fierce memoir of a mother’s murder, a daughter’s coming-of-age in the wake of immense loss, and her mission to know the woman who gave her life.
When Sarah Perry was twelve, she saw a partial eclipse of the sun, an event she took as a sign of good fortune for her and her mother, Crystal. But that brief moment of darkness ultimately foreshadowed a much larger one: two days later, Crystal was murdered in their home in rural Maine, just a few feet from Sarah’s bedroom.
The killer escaped unseen; it would take the police twelve years to find him, time in which Sarah grew into adulthood, struggling with abandonment, police interrogations, and the effort of rebuilding her life when so much had been lost. Through it all she would dream of the eventual trial, a conviction—all her questions finally answered. But after the trial, Sarah’s questions only grew. She wanted to understand her mother’s life, not just her final hours, and so she began a personal investigation, one that drew her back to Maine, taking her deep into the abiding darkness of a small American town.
Told in searing prose, After the Eclipse is a luminous memoir of uncomfortable truth and terrible beauty, an exquisite memorial for a mother stolen from her daughter, and a blazingly successful attempt to cast light on her life once more.
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Why I love it
Gabourey Sidibe
Reading After the Eclipse made me think of my own life in two parts: Before I became an actor, and now that I am one. I think of what sliding doors I could’ve walked through or avoided and wonder if I’d have ended up here, wherever "here" is. If I had gone to a different school, or lived in a different apartment, would it have changed the course of my life completely?
Sarah Perry's life is also separated into two parts, but in a totally different way. She writes the haunting, true story of the death of her mother when she was a scared, twelve-year-old girl. Sarah was at home and awake as her mother was assaulted and murdered. Sarah heard much of the attack but paralyzed by fear, she was unable to intervene. Here in her book, she talks about her life in before and after. Before the murder, she was a smart girl with a bright future with a loving mom for a best friend. After, she became a tragic orphan with more questions than answers, an incomplete understanding of who her mother was and a blank, empty space of who she’ll never get to be.
I think what affects me most about her story is her need to search for who her mother was through police records, court documents and the friends and family her mother left behind. I can’t imagine having to piece together a loved one’s life with what are essentially scraps of paper. Especially my mother. Luckily, I don’t have to do that. I have both of my parents still but I can’t say I know who they are, outside of just being my mom and dad. Even now, I haven’t spoken to my dad in weeks and can go just as long without talking to my mother. I can go years without speaking to my siblings. I act as if I’m an orphan. I like to think "Oh I’ll make a call or visit soon. I'll get to know them as people and not just as parents someday." After the Eclipse reminds me that tragedy can strike at any moment and "someday," can and will disappear forever and that may be sooner than I think.
After the Eclipse is both a heartfelt memoir and a suspenseful story. With its many twist and turns, the mystery of this murdered woman and the small town of people who knew and loved her, feels like I’m reading a prequel to Twin Peaks. The more I read and unlock the secrets of who Sarah’s mother was, the more I am urged to unlock the secrets of who my own parents are. While I’m not yet an orphan.
Member ratings (2,160)
Emily B.
Eugene, OR
So raw and honest - everyone who is “obsessed†with murder (especially fans of the My Favorite Murder podcast) should read this and afterwards see if they still feel the same of unresolved violence.
Donna A.
Long Beach, CA
This book has stayed with me since I’ve read it. Sarah’s mother was murdered while she was in the next room. It’s told by her memories before and after the murder. Highly recommend for Murderinos.
Sara P.
Cincinnati , OH
Sarah is one strong woman and I applaud her bravery. If you’ve ever watched the news and thought “omg, how terrible!”, yet an hour later are worried about your own petty crap, you should read this
Cassidy K.
Mount holly , NJ
Ive read this one twice and it has stuck with me long after I finished it. I recommend this one very much. It can be kind of hard to get through just bc of the subject matter but it’s worth the read
Brandy R.
Borden , IN
This book was hard to read but it felt so important to continue on even when it was difficult. It is heartbreaking to learn what this woman went through but it is an amazing story of self empowerment.