Young Adult

The Astonishing Color of After

We’re happy to support debut authors, including Emily X.R. Pan with The Astonishing Color of After.

by Emily X.R. Pan

Quick take

An emotional and magical story of a teenage girl who, after her mother's suicide, travels to Taiwan in search of her heritage.

Good to know

  • Emotional

  • 400+ Pages

  • Supernatural

  • Teens

Why I love it

Kissing her longtime bff Axel in his basement was the biggest event in Leigh Chen Sanders’ life so far, until she gets home and learns her mother has taken her own life. Set adrift by her devastation, Leigh shuts herself off from the world.

Now, I know what you’re thinking. “Liberty, this book sounds so sad!” Well, it IS sad. But it’s also full of life and hope. It’s a remarkable examination of...


Leigh Chen Sanders is absolutely certain about one thing: When her mother died by suicide, she turned into a bird.

Leigh, who is half Asian and half white, travels to Taiwan to meet her maternal grandparents for the first time. There, she is determined to find her mother, the bird. In her search, she winds up chasing after ghosts, uncovering family secrets, and forging a new relationship with h...