All the Way to the River by Elizabeth Gilbert

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All the Way to the River by Elizabeth Gilbert

Memoir

All the Way to the River

by Elizabeth Gilbert

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Elizabeth Gilbert bares her soul in this joyful and shattering memoir of grief, love, and addiction in all its forms.

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Synopsis

Twenty years ago, Elizabeth Gilbert’s Eat Pray Love inspired millions of readers to embark upon their own journeys of self-discovery. A decade later, Big Magic empowered countless others to live their most creative lives. Now comes another landmark book—about love and loss, addiction and recovery, grief and liberation.

In 2000, a friend sent Liz to see a new hairdresser named Rayya Elias. An intense and unlikely curiosity sparked between these two apparent opposites: Rayya, an East Village badass who lived boldly on her own terms but feared she was a failed artist; Liz, a married people-pleaser with a surprisingly unfettered sense of creativity. Over the years, they became friends, then best friends, then inseparable. When tragedy entered their lives, the truth was finally laid bare: The two were in love. Unacknowledged: they were also a pair of addicts, on a collision course toward catastrophe.

What if the love of your life—and the person you most trusted in the world—became a danger to your sanity and wellbeing? What if the dear friend who taught you so much about your self-destructive tendencies became the unstable partner with whom you disastrously reenacted every one of them? And what if your most devastating heartbreak opened a pathway to your greatest awakening?

All the Way to the River is for everyone who has ever been captive to love–or to any other passion, substance, or craving—and who yearns, at long last, for peace and freedom.

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This book contains scenes depicting domestic abuse.

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All the Way to the River

A VISITATION

On the morning of my fifty-​fourth birthday, I woke up at dawn and instantly realized that my partner, Rayya, was in the bedroom with me.

This was an extremely impressive accomplishment on her part, because at that point she had been dead for more than five years.

Yet here she was—​­a churning, energetic current of pure Rayyaness, roiling through my tiny New York City apartment in wave after unmistakable wave of her.

I was neither alarmed nor frightened (I would know her anywhere, I would love her anywhere), but I was surprised, for it had been awhile since she’d made such an appearance. And oh, how I’d missed her! She used to visit me like this all the time in the raw and bewildering months immediately following her death. Back then, she’d been so incredibly present, so consistently accessible, so funny and loving and demanding, that I used to joke: “Rayya is more vivid in death than most people are in life!”

It wasn’t that I could see her in those ­long-​ago visitations—​­she was not some spectral Victorian ghost ­bride—​­but I could feel her unmistakable presence, and I could distinctly hear her voice, speaking straight into my consciousness. The clarity of communication between us had been extraordinary back then, right after she died. It was as though she’d rigged up a strikingly effective supernatural Dixie-cup telephone system, through which she could chat with me across the cosmos using a long, long strand of yarn. The effect had been so intimate as to be sensual. Sometimes it was even fun. I would be out there in public, smiling and nodding and trying to act like a normal person, but Rayya and I would be having private conversations inside my head the entire time.

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Why we chose it...


This is a messy, emotionally raw memoir that pulls no punches in its portrayal of grief and heartbreak—or in its transcendent moments of joy.


We were struck by how bravely this book explores the complex experience of addiction: Gilbert writes about the journey of being and loving an addict with breathtaking clarity.


The unique creative structure tells a story that reaches beyond personal memoir to encompass poetry, self-help, spirituality, and even hand-drawn art.

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Care and Feeding
Did I Ever Tell You?
Here After
Alive Day
I Regret Almost Everything
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The Wives
Walk Like a Girl
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How to Say Babylon
Wild Game
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The Girl Who Smiled Beads
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