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The Push by Ashley Audrain

The Push


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by Ashley Audrain

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A nightmarish look at what happens when a mother's little bundle of joy becomes her greatest source of fear.

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    Family drama

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    Critically acclaimed

  • Illustrated icon, Icon_MamaDrama

    Mama drama

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Blythe Connor is determined that she will be the warm, comforting mother to her new baby Violet that she herself never had.

But in the thick of motherhood’s exhausting early days, Blythe becomes convinced that something is wrong with her daughter—she doesn’t behave like most children do.

Or is it all in Blythe’s head? Her husband, Fox, says she’s imagining things. The more Fox dismisses her fears, the more Blythe begins to question her own sanity, and the more we begin to question what Blythe is telling us about her life as well.

Then their son Sam is born—and with him, Blythe has the blissful connection she’d always imagined with her child. Even Violet seems to love her little brother. But when life as they know it is changed in an instant, the devastating fallout forces Blythe to face the truth.

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The Push

Your house glows at night like everything inside is on fire.

The drapes she chose for the windows look like linen. Expensive linen. The weave is loose enough that I can usually read your mood. I can watch the girl flip her ponytail while she finishes homework. I can watch the little boy toss tennis balls at the twelve-?­foot ceiling while your wife lunges around the living room in leggings, reversing the day’s mess. Toys back in the basket. Pillows back on the couch.

Tonight, though, you’ve left the drapes open. Maybe to see the snow falling. Maybe so your daughter could look for reindeer. She’s long stopped believing, but she will pretend for you. Anything for you.

You’ve all dressed up. The children are in matching plaid, sitting on the leather ottoman as your wife takes their picture with her phone. The girl is holding the boy’s hand. You’re fiddling with the record player at the back of the room and your wife is speaking to you, but you hold up a finger—you’ve almost got it. The girl jumps up and your wife, she sweeps up the boy, and they spin. You lift a drink, Scotch, and sip it once, twice, and slink from the record like it’s a sleeping baby. That’s how you always start to dance. You take him. He throws his head back. You tip him upside down. Your daughter reaches up for Daddy’s kiss and your wife holds your drink for you. She sways over to the tree and adjusts a string of lights that isn’t sitting quite right. And then you all stop and lean toward one another and shout something in unison, some word, perfectly timed, and then you all move again—this is a song you know well. Your wife slips out of the room and her son’s face follows robotically. I remember that feeling. Of being the needed one.

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Why I love it

Confession: it’s been a while since I’ve been able to read a book cover to cover. No matter how much I’ve longed to read, or how many worthy books have found their way to me, I’ve been too distracted by the state of the world to stick with anything for long. And then, behold, I received a copy of The Push by Ashley Audrain. I’ll just take a peek, I thought. Hours later, there I was, reading the last page by iPhone flashlight, unaware of anything other than the world I’d just inhabited.

The premise: A woman named Blythe, who is disinclined to motherhood, gets married and then pregnant. Her daughter Violet arrives and, overwhelmed and exhausted, Blythe decides there’s something very wrong with the child. Her husband disagrees, accuses Blythe of imagining things. But he’s out of the house most of the day and doesn’t see what she does—a young girl, devoid of empathy and incapable of affection.

Blythe’s complicated feelings for her daughter are made more complicated by the arrival of a second child, a son she adores. Blythe narrates as if she’s speaking directly to her husband and the technique provides for a wonderfully immersive and intimate read that culminates in one of the best last lines I’ve read in years, hands down.

Bottom line: This debut is a masterful mix of suspense and inventiveness, captivating from the first page—in other words, the exact thing we could all use right now.

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Member ratings (22,610)

  • Gabriela P.

    Houston, TX

    I give this book ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️! That’s how good this book was! I hated that I finished it! I wanted more and I couldn’t wait to tell all my fellow readers to READ IT NOW! I’m still shook!!

  • Shellie M.

    Springfield, MO

    I love the constant pull on the reader to decide if the mom is the bad guy or if it’s the daughter or did the mom create the daughter’s behavior due to the family’s history. Crazy ride! ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

  • Gina C.

    Canby, OR

    An addictive read about a mother who comes from a long line of dysfunctional families, struggling to break the cycle, but sometimes the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ Five Stars!!!

  • Holly R.

    Phoenix, AZ

    Absolutely brilliant! I couldn’t put it down but didn’t want it to end. Will leave you thinking for days. It has so much to offer on generational trauma and the meaning of motherhood. ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

  • Lauren D.

    Dripping Springs, TX

    ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ This book was a whirlwind of emotions. I couldn’t stop reading it, I read it in one day! The emotions were raw and as a mother hard to read at times. It truly played games with my head!

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