Told You So by Mayci Neeley

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Told You So by Mayci Neeley

Memoir

Told You So

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by Mayci Neeley

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Humor and strength shine in reality TV star Mayci Neeley’s uplifting story of hope in the face of tragedy and mourning.

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Synopsis

Mayci Neeley and the women of MomTok burst into the center of pop culture when Hulu’s The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives took the world by storm. But the show barely scratched the surface of Mayci’s personal story. From becoming a mom at twenty, to losing her son’s father in a tragic car accident, to going back to college as a single mother, she’s only ever given us glimpses of the challenging things she’s been through. Now, finally, she’s ready to tell us everything.

In this inspiring and darkly funny memoir, Mayci lifts the veil for readers on what growing up Mormon is really like and how its strict standards completely blow up for many young people when they get to college. When Mayci arrived at BYU on a tennis scholarship, she was unprepared to manage the temptations she’d been taught were sins. She found herself drinking too much, stuck in an abusive relationship, and on the verge of falling down a dark and dangerous path. Suddenly, she was pregnant at nineteen and mourning a boyfriend she’d been building a future with. Mayci captures the period from college to adulthood with brutal honesty, grace, and humor, offering up a heartfelt portrait of a woman finding her voice and her strength.

All of these trials led to her current love story, her journey with IVF, and of course the inside story of MomTok. Fans looking for a juicy play-by-play on the friend group drama will get everything they want—and then some—but more than anything, readers will walk away with a sense of confidence in themselves and an ability to wear their scars proudly.

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This book contains scenes depicting sexual assault and domestic abuse.

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Told You So

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The day my boyfriend dies, he texts me to say he’s sorry. He loves me. He’ll never forgive himself for hurting me while I’m pregnant with his baby.

Arik’s text ends with a typo. A single letter J. I don’t understand why he hasn’t finished his thought until my mom takes me out to lunch that afternoon. While scrolling Instagram at our usual table, I see a picture of Arik on my timeline with the caption “R.I.P.” He’s crashed his car while texting me.

That night, three hundred people follow me on Instagram. Hunched over my phone on my parents’ couch, I scroll past dozens of posts about Arik: pictures of him playing baseball, grinning at the camera, laughing with his family. There are screenshots of news stories about the crash that killed him, photos of people sobbing, and broken-heart emojis, all mixed in with the usual Instagram content—blurry selfies, food porn, a mediocre sunset. Those happy photos feel like they’ve been posted from another universe. Reminders of a time before I got pregnant and had to move back in with my Mormon parents in Southern California. Before I had to leave my scholarship and Division I tennis career at Brigham Young University behind.

I feel like I have to post something. But I have no idea what to write. I don’t want to admit that hours before Arik died, I’d learned he cheated on me. Devastated, I’d said the cruelest things I could think of: that he wouldn’t meet his baby unless it was in court; that he would never see me again; that I would never forgive him.

How could I explain via Instagram what it felt like to learn—at that dingy restaurant with my mom—that Arik died while texting me to ask for forgiveness, to tell me that I deserved better, to say that he loved me? How do you write a post about that?

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Care and Feeding
Did I Ever Tell You?
Here After
Alive Day
I Regret Almost Everything
Dinner for Vampires
The Wives
Walk Like a Girl
More
How to Say Babylon
Wild Game
While You Were Out
Grief Is for People
All That You Leave Behind
Leaving the Witness
Group
The Beauty in Breaking
The Girl Who Smiled Beads
Small Fry
Aftershocks
Too Much Is Not Enough
The House of My Mother
All the Way to the River
Told You So