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What Does It Feel Like? by Sophie Kinsella

Contemporary fiction

What Does It Feel Like?

by Sophie Kinsella

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A successful novelist must grapple with massive memory loss post-surgery in this affecting autobiographical novella.

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Synopsis

Eve is a successful novelist who wakes up one day in a hospital bed with no memory of how she got there. Her husband, never far from her side, explains that she has had an operation to remove the large, malignant tumor growing in her brain.

As Eve learns to walk, talk, and write again—and as she wrestles with her diagnosis, and how and when to explain it to her beloved children—she begins to recall what’s most important to her: long walks with her husband’s hand clasped firmly around her own, family game nights, and always buying that dress when she sees it.

Recounted in brief anecdotes, each one is an attempt to answer the type of impossible questions recognizable to anyone navigating the labyrinth of grief. This short, extraordinary novel is a celebration of life, shot through with warmth and humor—it will both break your heart and put it back together again.

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How to Write a Book

“And now,” says the nice interviewer from Modern Woman magazine, “how does it feel to be writing your seventh book?”

“It feels terrific,” lies Eve. “I’m really thrilled to be working on it and I can’t wait to share it with all my readers.”

It’s a nightmare. The words have jammed up for weeks and I don’t know what I’m doing. Everything feels turgid; everything feels pointless. Why did I want to be an author again?

“Can you tell us anything about it?” probes the interviewer.

“Yes, it’s a long family saga about a family called the Wilsons, set between the wars in a large country house.”

“It sounds wonderful!”

“Well, thank you,” says Eve, feeling unconvinced.

“We can’t wait to read it! And now, I know our readers will want to ask: Do you have any advice for aspiring authors?”

“Yes,” says Eve, who has answered this question about twenty-five thousand times and has therefore honed her thoughts. “I do, actually. My advice is to write the book you would like to read yourself. Visualize going into a bookshop and finding the perfect book. The book you would buy immediately. What does it look like? What’s it about? What genre is it? Then write that book. And above all, write the truth. Write what you know and do it convincingly. I don’t mean write nonfiction,” she clarifies. “I mean write the truth about life, whatever genre you’re in.”

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What Does It Feel Like? Early on in this warm and deeply personal story, Eve, a successful author and mother, wakes in a hospital surrounded by tubes and wires and nurses. She can’t recall how she got there; neither can she name the sitting prime minister. And so begins Eve’s journey with grade four glioblastoma, an aggressive cancer that will upend life as she knows it.

The challenges facing Eve are manifold. She must relearn how to walk. She discovers a distressing new incapacity to remember anyone’s name. Her husband and a team must help her with everything from remembering Christmas carol lyrics to making meals for her kids. But amidst these trials, Eve uncovers reserves of strength she never thought she had. And in doing so she just might learn what truly matters in this fleeting life we have.

How does one reckon with a sickness that’s generally terminal? How do we talk about death with our children? How do we talk about death with ourselves? These are a few of the mighty questions this slim, reflective volume—based on the author’s own experience with the same disease—seeks to tackle. In another writer’s hands, such a book might feel heavy, upsetting, intolerably sad. But Kinsella’s gentle wit and glimmers of wisdom transform this story into a work of valiant and uplifting beauty.

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Contemporary fiction
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The Last Love Note
What Does It Feel Like?
Anita de Monte Laughs Last
The Wedding People
Honey
The Leftover Woman
The Same Bright Stars
Bye, Baby
Definitely Better Now
Swan Song
The Days I Loved You Most
The Connellys of County Down
Joe Nuthin’s Guide to Life
Jackpot Summer
Adelaide
I Might Be in Trouble
The Collected Regrets of Clover
Again and Again
Evil Eye
Black Cake
Maame
Romantic Comedy
Someone Else’s Shoes
Once There Were Wolves
We Are the Brennans
The Bad Muslim Discount
What Comes After
Olga Dies Dreaming
Last Summer at the Golden Hotel
Monster in the Middle
Nine Perfect Strangers
The Star-Crossed Sisters of Tuscany
The Girl with Stars in Her Eyes
Honey Girl
In Every Mirror She's Black
Yinka, Where Is Your Huzband?
Sankofa
The Unsinkable Greta James
The Love of My Life
The Five-Star Weekend
A Home for the Holidays
The Wishing Game
Behold the Dreamers
The Mothers
All the Ugly and Wonderful Things
Little Fires Everywhere
The Music Shop
Where’d You Go, Bernadette
The Reckless Oath We Made
When We Were Vikings
The Girl with the Louding Voice
A Good Neighborhood
Big Summer
All Adults Here
Happy & You Know It
Friends and Strangers
The Comeback
True Story
The Last Story of Mina Lee
Troubles in Paradise
White Ivy
This Close to Okay
The Chicken Sisters
The Prophets
In a Book Club Far Away
The Other Black Girl
Apples Never Fall
A Quiet Life
We Are the Light
The Most Likely Club
The Fortunes of Jaded Women
When We Were Bright and Beautiful
The Hotel Nantucket